The proverb by Judy Blume: “Each of us must confront our fears, must come face to face with them. How we handle our fears will determine where we go with the rest of our lives. To experience adventure or to be limited by the fear of it”, is about to test me.
In dire straits, dumbstruck with terror, I was staring at the screen. An ineffable chain of thoughts and emotions was triggered when I came to know that the government has allowed the colleges to reopen. My phone started chiming, and the WhatsApp groups were filled with messages celebrating the reopening. Terrific news for many was terrifying to me.
For the ones like me who like to remain in a shell, and have to fight fear every second, so that people don’t judge and make fun of my insecurities. This moment was a catastrophe.
Walking out of a comfort zone feels like drowning in a pool made up of jealousy, competitiveness, hate, bully, and critics. It’s a daunting task, especially when one is accustomed to loving, care, and support at home. Adding more to this, many of us will be bidding bye to home, where comfort, snugness, and a heart stuffed with food.
I have become habitual of conversing with people and attending classes in an online mode. Now, I won’t get to surf Instagram when the professor is busy lecturing. Other Reasons bind me to this mode like -I’m scared of wearing uncomfortable clothes, attending lectures without the comfort of the Blanket will also trouble me. The idea of facing people outside virtual reality gives me goosebumps. I imagine some of my classmates to be bigger, and the thought of watching them without filters seems astounding.
Stephen Hawking said, “Quiet people have the loudest minds”. But somewhere in the chaos, the loudest minds remain unheard. The only way out is the way through. We can’t make our feelings or the people disappear, but we can make our insecurities disappear just by appearing in Infront of them.
We’ll have to tear down our skin to be appealing for the world to let us be, I hope one day I can dance in the rain without an umbrella alongside the people I know. A few good words and some gestures can help us in building confidence. A person who is not expressive will certainly require courage.
They say every city has its seasons and atmosphere, I fear I’ll get sick every season until I build my umbrella. At last, I’d say this, we can’t possibly choose the season, but we can choose umbrellas.